Do you ever feel like there are things you need to do, but don't know what they are? I am not sure that is the right feeling. It is somewhere between not knowing what to do and feeling helpless to do them. I have gotten to where I hate talking to anyone. I feel so insecure and nervous--nothing comes out of my mouth correctly. I just keep thinking it is already March and what have I accomplished toward becoming better--being happier with my life. I really haven't done anything. I continue to hide behind work and avoid everything else. My Sunday was free and what did I do, I slept all day. It felt really good and I woke rested and relaxed, but it doesn't stop the waves of guilt and paranoia.

On a side note, I went to some friends house on Friday and played A Game of Thrones the boardgame  I always say Fantasy Flight game have very good production quality, but they take so long to learn to play.  I should have looked at the box prior to starting to play--it said 2-4 hours which means the first game was probably going to be at least 8 hours.  Unfortunately, we did not make it to the end.  It was fun up to when we quit, but we really didn't get into the warring part.  Based on the partial game, I would still play it again with a larger time allocation and would even recommend the game.  We'll see if we play it again sometime.