Once more unto the breach,dear friends, once more...

I continue to update this blog and I wonder if it is being therapeutic at all.  I am struggling in life and can't seem to let people help me.  I feel weepy at weird times, I can't focus enough to watch a TV show all the way through, and reading seems completely out of the picture.  I even have trouble typing a blog entry.  One reason I force myself to type an entry every now and again it the lazy hope that people will click on the ads and I will make some money.  So far I'm up to about $8.00--in another year or so I might be able to fill up my tank if gas prices don't rise too much.

I went to a resume worskshop on Thursday and even though I didn't get the result I was looking for, I did feel better about myself. I need to go through the information given and finish a resume.  I went ahead and signed up for a more in depth 6 week bootcamp.  It is well worth the money if I get a job with a decent salary and one that I like.  I am working on zeroing on what I want to do--that is one of things I need to work out quickly.

As far as the car goes, I talked to the shop where it was taken on Tuesday.  They let me know they were giving an initial estimate of over 10 thousand dollars--that means it will most likely be totaled.  I am not excited about that.  I don't want to have to buy another car.  I will have to get a used car and it will not be as nice as my old one.  I borrowed a friend's car for most of the week, but finally rented a car on Friday.  I felt like I spent a lot of time going to my friend's house and back even though it was just the one night after the weekend.

I went to the graduation celebration and the open house at the club.  It was disappointing in that there weren't that many people graduating or there to watch.  Also, it seemed more disorganized than normal.  Also, the staff is changing and I just don't feel as much as part of it like I used to.  I believe this is contributing to my depression.  I wish I had money for some lessons.

I spent the rest of the weekend at a friend's playing games.  OK, I only played one game--Arkham Horror with the Dunwich Horror expansion from Fantasy Flight Games. It is a cooperative game where you try to close and seal gates to the Otherworlds before the Old One awakens and devours everyone.  One game took us somewhere between 6 and 7 hours.  I enjoyed the game, but since it took so long some people kind of faded after a while.  Today I watched them play Thief of Baghdad from Z-Man Games.  They had been playing for over an hour when I arrived.  I think it took 4 or 5 hours for someone to win.  Even though I watched for several hours, I still don't exactly know how to play the game.  It looked very interesting and hopefully I will have an opportunity to play it again someday.


I see you stand like greyhounds in the slips,
Straining upon the start. The game's afoot:
Follow your spirit, and upon this charge
Cry 'God for Harry, England, and Saint George!

Good night and have a pleasant tomorrow.