My week end was fuller than I thought.  On Friday, I took some old records and textbooks to Half Priced Books to sell.  Since the textbooks were so old and the records were mostly 80's pop, I only was offered a dollar.  I figured that was better than nothing, plus they were going to donate the books to other groups that might be able to use them--I was happy as long as they didn't charge me to take them away.

Friday night I went to the club and realized how out of practice I am.  My waltz was absolutely horrific--although still better than most people there.  I think part of my depression is that I am out of lessons and I have no money for more.  I really love to dance, but I am scared to dance with people--how weird is that.  What ever I am going through seems so full of contradictions.  I want to do things, but I am scared to death of doing them--or I just don't have the focus to do them.  In a way I have been like this for a long time, but there are subtle differences.  One of my biggest issues is that I can't read large amounts of texts--more than a paragraph and I start skipping through trying to get the gist of it.

Anyhow, Saturday I went to the FLGS for the Gamma World game day--although it wasn't as local as I would have liked. I enjoyed the experience, but it was very scary playing with people who I don't know.  To make matters worse they all seemed to know each other and they were very imaginative.  I felt out of place--of course I feel that way around people in general these days.  The game has very simple mechanics and allows for a lot more imagination and role-playing if that is what you want.  For example, there are basically 6 stats for weapons.  When you choose a one handed melee weapon, you make up what the weapon actually is.  One guy was part bear, part avian creature and his weapon of choice was a two handed melee weapon--a large metal pole with a sign on the end.  The sign said "Don't Feed the Bears".  The game lasted about 3.5 hours after the characters were created.  The basic mechanic is a simplified D&D 4.0.

Later Saturday was the Saturday Social.  I had thrown together a chicken broccoli rice casserole and put it in the crockpot on low.  When I got back from the Gamma World game, the mixture was overcooked.  I quickly threw another casserole together and cooked it in the oven.  I was surprised at the number of people at the social.  Most of them were new and I did not know them, but it was good to see decent attndence since a large number of the regulars were at an OU watch party--whatever that is.

Today (Sunday) I have been extremely tired and unmotivated.  I almost didn't make it to church.  Thank goodness there was no Sunday school today or I would have never made it.  I did manage to finaly get some laundry done and to finish loading the dishwaser and starting it.  I don't seem to be tired any more and I was hoping to get up early tomorrow and get my financials documented for my CPA.

I am going to put on an episode of Big Bang Theory and hope I can get to sleep.