I almost missed my appointment with my psychologist.  I can't seem to get to bed at a decent time, so I got up late and then the morning flew by.  I got some laundry done and I managed to charge the battery in the Tracker.  I had started the process yesterday, but stopped it when I went to meet a friend for dinner and games before going to the club for a special party.  I hooked the battery back up to the charger this morning, and when I got back from my appointment, it was charged.  I put the battery back in the Tracker and it cranked right up.  now I just need to take it to CarMax and see what they will give me for it.

At the psychologist I told him about my aspirin overdose when I was little and he seems to think that might be why I feel helpless a lot and why I have such deep fear issues.  It makes sense to me from a logical perspective, but I am not feeling it emotionally.  He said I need to "internally digest" it.  He also wants me to keep a dream journal--really he is just curious about my dreams, but he did suggest a dream journal when I explained I don;t seem to remember my dreams.  Some of my medication seems to prevent me from having dreams, so I am going to try to stay off the sleep aids.  I have been trying to take less anyway, so it shouldn't be a big deal. Although tonight it is already late and I am supposed to play games tomorrow at Ralph's starting at 11:00 AM. 

I want to do some things in the morning--mostly I was going to make a chicken, broccoli, cheese and rice casserole to take since I already have the ingredients.  That means I need about an hour to put it together and cook everything.  Now that I think about it, it doesn't sound like such a good idea, but I plan to do it anyway.  I have been logging game play on BoardGameGeek.com and I am excited to log tomorrow's games.  I am not sure what we will play and Ralph thinks there might be 7 of us which really limits the games we can play.  Frank is supposed to be there and I want to talk to him about my road bike.  I wanted to call him up and talk to him about maybe taking my road bike to the store close to him to see if the guy he knows can true up the wheels.  I didn't do it, so I am not going to take the bike.  I sent out a list of games I could bring and only heard that someone doesn't like Playroom's Killer Bunnies and the Quest for the Magic Carrot.  I was thinking about inviting Andi and having her bring her copy with all the expansions, but now I won't.

Today I also agreed to help with Sunday School at the church.  I have kind of wanted to get more involved with the church and when I got the email practically begging for help, I couldn't say no.  In a way it was like a sign from God.  I am actually excited for this.  I now have to attend a meeting Sunday morning to meet all the people and go through what we will be doing.  I thought I would be more scared, but I seem to be doing much better lately--and I don't know why.  Maybe the therapy is actually working and I just don't realize it.  I am not having grandiose fantasies about how I will be the best instructor and everyone will be awed by me.  I just know I will do a good job, because that is the type of person I am.  I enjoy children and think this will be good for me while I am doing something good for others.  It is not going to be easy to be there every Sunday morning, but I plan to try my best to be there as much as possible.

I finally bought a whiteboard for me to write reminders and notes on.  I even hung it on a wall as I come down the stairs.  We will have to see how it works for me, but lately I feel like I have forgotten so many things and hopefully this will keep me on top of things.

Now that I am feeling better, I wonder if I should have given up on the consulting business.  My main concern is that I am doing so well because I gave up the business.  I really need to update my resume and send it out to some key people.  I keep saying I will do it tomorrow and that is the classic trap I get into.  The good news is that I have been cleaning up around the house and getting some other things done while I am procrastinating instead of just playing on the computer all day or watching TV.  My garage is a little cleaner and I manage to pick up tools from all over the house and organize them in the toolboxes.  I am hoping this is a tend that I continue.  I would really like to have a clean house.

It is really late and I already mentioned I have a busy day tomorrow, so I will go to bed, but I have noticed through Google Analytics that more people are landing on my site.  While I wish they would click on some ads to generate revenue, I am a little apprehensive that someone might actually be reading what I type.  Since they are anonymous, I am able to handle it.  If you are reading this, just click through some of the ads--you do not have to buy anything, just click.